Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Holly: A Christmas Reflection

         On my ¼ mile commute to Lake Avenue Church I walk over a bridge which many homeless people call home.  Overpassing 10 lanes of traffic and 2 train lines, with elevator and stair access to the metro station below, the bridge is a busy place with a lot of opportunity for hand-outs as well as many corners to sleep in.  I’ve become accustomed to my early morning walks including the stench of urine coming from the elevator, passing by at least 8 sleeping people on my side of the street (many more visible on the other side), and sometimes dodging vomit and other nastiness on the sidewalk. 

O come, Thou Day-Spring, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death's dark shadows put to flight.

                About 2 months ago I started seeing a woman on the corners of Corson and Lake on Sunday mornings.  The first few times I saw her I was very confused by her.  She held artistic signs proclaiming “GOD LOVES EVERYONE!” and “EVEN A SMILE HELPS!”  She was flamboyant in her mannerisms, smiling and waving at every car passing by.  At first I was offended and thought maybe she wasn’t homeless, but someone who chose this particular area to proselytize on Sunday mornings.   She was rather forward and I was uncomfortable walking by her.   

Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing…

                After a few weeks of seeing her on her corner regularly, I realized that she most likely was homeless and this corner was her home.  The first day I talked to her she was crying.  I asked her if she was ok and she told me “This sweet little angel, this little girl, just gave me this bag of candy and a note that says “God loves you” and it is just the nicest thing anyone has done for me!” 

He Comes to make his blessings flow, far as the curse is found...

                I stayed and talked with her for a few minutes and she shared bits of her story with me.  The first thing she shared with me, proudly, was that she had been sober for a few months and doing very well. She was (and since has always been) clearly sober, and not inebriated in any way.  She shared snippets of horror from her past: A boyfriend who pimped her out for money, gang violence which led to clearly broken and poorly healed fingers, temporary blindness due to an eye-drop bottle which was given to her actually being full of acid… yet all of this was shared not for pity, just to tell it like it is.  Her experience had clearly toughened her, and she proudly proclaimed “I don’t bruise!”  I asked her name, and she answered “Holly” and pulled up her sleeve to reveal a tattoo chain of holly leaf and berry around her bicep. 

Veiled in flesh the Godhead see…




                “Holly, what do you need?”  “I need to get inside.  I have money, I can afford some rent, but I need sober living so I can keep on track.”  I promised her I would look up sober living in the area and get back to her.  The next day I brought by a cup full of hot chili (to which she asked if it was gluten free J ) and a list of phone numbers for sober living in the county.  She was so grateful, and impressed that I came right back the next day.  “I hope this will help you be able to get off the streets, you need better than this.”  “Well, I do want to be inside… but this is where I’m supposed to be right now.  God wants me here.  I’m working for him here.  All of these people need me. Every day He shows me another person who needs a smile, or someone to encourage and each day I see Him doing good work by me being out here.”

Mild He lays His glory by
Born that we no more may die
Born to raise us from the earth
Born to give us second birth

                I see Holly regularly now, and each time I’m greeted with at least 2 hugs.  I’ve learned to try to give myself an extra 10 minutes to get to church so I can be sure to visit with her for a bit.  The more I get to know Holly, the more humbled I am by her story and faith.  Holly talks theology with me, often referencing C.S. Lewis, quoting scripture and one day she had Madeleine L’engles A Wrinkle In Time folded open on her stool.  She tells me about her day, which includes sweeping her corner, helping stop traffic when emergency vehicles need to get by, feeding stray cats, and waving at all of the vehicles.  She tells me who has been up to trouble lately, pointing out the man on the next corner as someone who isn’t homeless yet stands there “lying to all the cars that he needs money.”  She knows everything that’s going on, and acts a bit like the military mom of the streets, keeping people in line and calling the police when necessary.  She makes lots of friends, like me, who pass her on their commute. (One day, there were three of us visiting with Holly!) People bring her food to eat, which she distributes to her neighbors who are more hungry than she is.  She makes me laugh with jokes about how the new Volkswagens are made with windows that “don’t roll down” (to give out money) and encourages me with my new job in Children’s ministry saying “With someone like you, I see hope for the Church!”  

Born thy people to deliver,
born a child and yet a King,
born to reign in us forever,
now thy gracious kingdom bring.

                After my first few times of visiting Holly I started to realize that she is one of the best examples of Jesus I have met in a long time.  Incarnation: Christ’s sacrifice of giving up the glory of heaven to enter into the pain of humanity, as one of us, in order to bring redemption and salvation to our brokenness.  Choosing a manger in a stable and a cross on a hill instead of his throne in heaven.  Humble obedience knew that true JOY would come from serving His father and his people instead of serving himself.   As Holly’s prospects for moving “inside” progress, she tells me firmly that “even if I get inside, I will still be here every day.  This is where God wants me.  This is where I need to be.”

Who, being in very nature God,
    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
 rather, he made himself nothing
    by taking the very nature of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.



                We’re all called to do the same.  Through the Joy we find in Christ we are told to set aside our own needs for the needs of others. Holly’s humble and steadfast obedience to “do Gods work” on the corner of Corson and Lake has exemplified compassion, love, grace, and JOY to so many who encounter her each day.  By choosing to give up the opportunity for a better life, one which doesn’t involve sleeping in a tent or being harassed and looked down upon regularly, Holly is embodying the love of Christ in the best ways she knows how.   She’s not perfect, she'll be the first one to tell you that, but she’s living out her convictions with sincere integrity. 

…Good news of great joy that will be for all the people…

                Christmas is about Joy.  It’s about love.  It’s about a lot of feel-good things.  But along with these cheery things, it is about a King who chose to enter into the pain of those who were most unworthy of his grace.  Incarnation, or a ministry of presence, is about lingering with people in their pain.  I’ve been inspired by Holly to linger.  All of the theology classes in the world couldn’t teach me what she knows about grace.  This Christmas, as I’m surrounded by decorations of holly leaves, I’m reminded of a friend who lives outside whose life points to Someone who once lived outside … and I’m humbled, and drawn to deeper worship, deeper compassion, and deeper JOY.

O Come let us adore Him!









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